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Saturday, January 5, 2013

Good-bye 2012! So Glad I Knew Ye...

I often feel like the years go by and not much happens, nothing much changes. I'm sort of alright with that because I like my life. But then I run into people and they inquire "What's new?" and I can't think of a thing to say.

Not that much did change this past year, certainly nothing drastic, but some things were certainly out of the ordinary.
  • Husband spent more than half of the year traveling back and forth between here and Japan. That was different for both of us - he got to experience living in Japan for weeks at a time; I got to experience being on my own for the first time in ten years. 
  • Husband and I had some vacation time in Japan together which was an unforgettable experience, and we definitely plan to go back some day.
Those were the big events. Some of the smaller stuff - while Husband was away, I got to experiment with my diet, going pretty much vegetarian and cutting out wheat & dairy for a while. On his last trip to Japan, Husband experienced a recurrence of an eye condition he had a few years back, so he got to experience a bit of the medical system in Japan and once he got home there were lots of doctor appointments.

It seemed like things had just settled down from that, when our washing machine quit on us and then Husband got sick from a spider bite. Yes indeed, life has been eventful.

Early in December I realized I was missing a piece of jewelery - a square cut emerald ring that Husband bought for me many years ago when he was in Columbia for work. This broke my heart a bit (actually more than a bit, there were tears), I'm still not over it. I walk around the house looking, as if I expect the ring to appear, but it's gone. I don't think there is any point in going into detailed explanation of the series of events. Suffice it to say, this has put a damper on my mood. I know it is just an object, and there are much larger problems out there in the world, but there was a lot of sentimental value there and it hurts.

Moving on, because there is nothing else to be done, we did have an enjoyable holiday season. We both had a couple of weeks off work. Winter actually held off until the evening of my last day of work, and then we had a snow storm. Fortunately, the weather behaved for our trip home to Nova Scotia where we had a wonderful visit with our family there. Then there was another snow storm the day after we returned home, and another on the 30th. Mother Nature packed a whole lot of winter into two weeks.

No big plans for 2013 so far. It seems like Husband may be finished with traveling for a while, which is nice. One of my sisters is coming home for a visit sometime this spring (I miss my sisters!) and it looks like we will be going to Ottawa this summer, though I'm not sure how long of a trip it will be.

I don't really do New Year's Resolutions, but at the same time I have felt over the last few months that I was always waiting for things to settle down so that I could think straight and work on some goals. I was feeling pretty overwhelmed for a while there. So, while I am still somewhat rested from my vacation (I was back to work on the 2nd - that was a bit painful in all honesty), I will try to set out some goals.

Food related:
  • Over the holidays I noticed that I am starting to get eczema on my hands and forearms again, so I think it's time to start watching the diet again with an eye to figuring out the causes. I had cut out both wheat and dairy, but I don't know whether I need to cut out both or just one. I still do not consume much dairy - a little cream in my coffee sometimes (at home I am still using soy), some cheese and butter now and then. Oh, and chocolate. :) Wheat shows up a lot more - it is just so easy to use pasta & bread as components of a meal. I need do some experimenting here.
  • Several years ago now, I was diagnosed with Meniere's Disease. This is an inner ear disease that affects hearing and balance. Many people suffer from severe vertigo. For me, it has mostly affected my hearing. Most of the treatment options seem to be focused on relieving the vertigo and balance issues, there don't seem to be many treatment options to help with the hearing loss. But I was doing some reading recently that said diet can help. The hearing loss I have is permanent, unfortunately, but there may be things I can do to lessen the tinnitus I have in both ears. And I certainly don't want the hearing loss to get worse, so if there is something I can do there to help diet-wise, I should at least try.
  • For a while there last winter, while I was doing my vegetarian and wheat & dairy elimination thing, I got to a place where I found like I was finally at peace with my eating. I felt like I was in control, I was content & satisfied and I was losing weight - slowly, but I was losing. I would like to get there again. 
Fitness related:
  • Mostly just keep doing what I'm doing; I'm liking the Zumba classes and circuit training at home. 
  • Try to remember that I don't have to put pressure on myself to do a particular workout - I can always substitute if I'm not in the mood for a planned activity.
  • A co-worker has been looking into arranging a group yoga class and it sounds like that is going to happen. I enjoy yoga when I'm doing it. I know it has many benefits. Yet I seem unable to stick to a regular practice on my own - I think I give other workouts a higher priority. So many workouts I want to do, so little time! I have no idea yet what type of yoga this will be, or who the instructor will be, but I'm hoping I can take advantage of this class to bring yoga into my life on a regular basis.
  • My office is moving to a new building this spring; I will be back in the building that I worked in for the first 7 years that I lived in this city. I have mixed feelings - I like where we are now, but there are certainly benefits to being in that office complex, one of those being that there is a gym in that building. I used to belong to that gym, but quit once I was no longer working in the building as I was not getting there enough to make it worth. I'm not sure that it would be worth it to join again either, but when the time comes I will look into it. 
Other goals:
  • Finish re-organizing the bathroom. We had to remove the doors from the laundry alcove in the bathroom when we got our new washer & dryer in November. I actually find it much easier with the doors gone, but it also means we can't hide our disorganized mess. So I need to get out and purchase some baskets so that we can store things in a tidy manner.
  • The never ending project of cleaning out the basement. This is a one step forward, two steps back kind of job. Someday I hope to actually get a handle on it.
I had intended to get a start on some of those housekeeping goals over the holidays. Instead I spent most of my vacation like this:


Not me. Obviously. This is my parent's cat. But the general attitude of lazing around? That was me.


This is me, underneath my clowder of cats. When we returned from our trip to NS, these guys were stuck to me like burrs.

There was lots of snowy weather that made hibernation seem quite natural.



The cats are rather put out by all this snow, Frank especially. They don't want to be out in it  at all, not that I blame them. But it makes them a bit crazy at times. 


This is Frank's I-want-something-get-up-and-pay-attention-to-me face. Most of the time he doesn't seem to know what he wants though, so I just follow him around the house; usually we end up at the food dish.


This just made me laugh. I left a blanket and pillow on the love seat, and I come in from the kitchen to see Zappa lounging against the pillow. He looked pretty satisfied with the situation.

Happy 2013 friends!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Happy December!

Our weather continues to veer wildly back and forth between beautifully warm and freezing cold. Today we were back to warm, and I love it. Welcome to the Maritimes.

I would like to say that I have made some progress since I wrote this post trying to analyze what I was doing right last winter, when I was losing weight. But I haven't. Partially it's because things have been busy, but it's also because I can't quite figure out how to do it. But it's too late at night for me to write that  post right now.

So for now, I will record my October & November workouts, and I will try to get to the rest of it soon.

October
01: Treadmill Walk + 2 Zumba songs
02: Zumba
04: Zumba
05: Jackie Warner One On One Training UB+LB + Treadmill Walk
06: Zumba-versary
09: Zumba
11: Zumba
16: Zumba
19: Treadmill Walk
22: Zumba
29: Jackie Warner Xtreme Timesaver Circuit

November
01: Zumba
02: Crunch Burn & Firm Pilates DVD
08: Treadmill Walk
09: Crunch Yoga Body Sculpt
11: Yard Work
12: Yard Work & Stacking Wood
14: Treadmill Walk+ 2 Zumba Songs
15: Zumba
17: Jackie Warner Power Circuit Total Body
20: Zumba
23: The FIRM Power Half Hour DVD
26: Crunch Cardion Sculpt DVD
27: Zumba

Some highlights from my Sunday...


I baked donuts. It was fun. They taste good. Did I say I want to lose weight?

Refilled the Peanut Wreath bird feeder again. The Jays seem to empty it in about 2 days.

That's pretty much it. I was a busy-around-the-house day, but also a quiet day. I like that in a Sunday.

Edit for the wannabe donut bakers:

I have this Norpro Petite Donut pan:



The packaging included 2 recipes, but if you go here: http://www.recipesecrets.net/forums/recipe-exchange/46458-norpro-mini-donut-pan-baked-donut-recipes.html they list a bunch of recipes, including one that is gluten  free.
 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I Need A Vacation

Let's talk about October. I started off with a decent level of optimism. Feeling ready to work my way back to a good place with the eating, get back into my normal exercise routine.

Yeah, well. Life is what happens while you're making other plans.

October started off well enough. The long weekend rolled around and we probably enjoyed a few too many treats, but we had a good time.

The following Wednesday, Husband was doing a load of laundry when he heard a loud 'thunk' from the washing machine, followed by the smell of burnt rubber. Sigh. We called for a repair guy, and the soonest appointment we could get was a week away, on Thursday.

Friday morning: Husband wakes up with a red splotch on his torso; it was swollen and sore, looked kind of like a rash. He goes on with his day, but feels worse and worse as time goes by.

Saturday morning: The red splotch is now very angry looking. Husband is in pain and is experiencing fever and chills. Off to the clinic we go, to be told by the doctor that it's is a spider bite. We leave with a prescription for antibiotics.

Husband spends the weekend feeling very ill. We are going through towels and washcloths and blankets, since compresses seem to help with the pain. And, oh yeah, our washing machine is broken so we can't wash all these towels and washcloths and blankets.

Meanwhile, I am freaking out because spider bite! I have a hard time sleeping, I am busy all day taking care of husband and quietly having panic attacks.

Tuesday: Off to our family doctor. The infection is still spreading. Off to the hospital we go for the first of 3 IV antibiotic treatments.

Between my spider phobia and Husband's needle phobia, it's not a good week in the JavaChick house.

However, the IV antibiotics are the turning point, and by the third day Husband is much better. I'm still not sleeping, but at least one of us is improving, right?

The washing machine repair dude shows up. Our machine is fixable, however it will be a week and a half minimum, possibly longer to get the part. Husband has been waiting for the right opportunity to replace the ancient, 2nd hand dryer that came the house, and going another week and a half, possibly longer, before we can do laundry is not appealing, so I agree to buying a new washer and dryer.

Plus, during his convalescence, Husband noticed that we have blue splotches in the middle of our TV screen. I have been noticing this for a while. I have been willing to put up with it. It really only shows up during dark scenes. I'd rather not buy a new TV. (This is how my mind works). I swear, husband lives for the chance to buy new TV sets.

So on Friday we go out and buy a washer & dryer. On Saturday we go out and buy a TV. Now, in addition to my heightened spider fear, I am hyperventilating from sticker shock. I don't like spending large amounts of money all at one time. Plus, I don't really like the new TV. Husband tells me it is better than the old one and I will get used to it (I still don't like it).

Add to that all the rainy, gloomy weather we were having and I was pretty much a wreck. One rainy day makes me feel sleepy and unmotivated. A week of rainy days makes me feel fuzzy headed and depressed.

Gosh, life is exhausting.

Things did quiet down after that, and life started to get back to semi-normal. Then toward the end of last week we realized Zappa wasn't himself. On Saturday I realized he was hardly eating anything - he wasn't even interested in his favorite cat treats and that was a huge deal. So I pretty much worried the  rest of the weekend and up until we saw the vet yesterday. I spent a lot of the weekend sitting in a chair with my Kindle and letting Zappa sleep in my lap.

At the vet's office, Zappa had a thorough exam, x-rays and blood tests and nothing showed up. This was good in that it eliminated a bunch of bad possibilities, but it didn't tell us what was wrong. He'd lost weight and the vet was worried about him not eating, so she said to try giving him a quarter of a Pepcid AC tablet once a day for a couple of days, in case an upset stomach was the reason he wasn't eating. So I went out and bought Pepcid AC for my cat (never would have expected that), and we gave him a quarter last night and he did eat some. Then today he was actually waiting to be fed when I got home from work, like he usually would be, so that seems like a good sign. I wouldn't say he's 100%, but at least he is eating and that's an improvement.

I realize that many people have larger problems and none of this was really tragic. It was exhausting and disruptive though.

I need to get out and tidy the yard for winter, put away all my garden stuff, but we had so much rain and then so much other stuff going on that it just didn't happen.

Our pile of wood is still sitting in the driveway and neither one of us really wants to go near it. I tried wiggling my fingers at it while saying  Wingardium Leviosa but nothing happened. It's because I didn't have a wand, right? Somebody find me a wand. Otherwise I have no idea how that wood is going to get stacked in the garage, and we will freeze this winter.

Okay. I'm done. I don't have the energy to whine any more.

Zappa thinks new TV sets are great. They come with boxes!



The birds ignore this peanut wreath feeder all summer, now I can't keep it filled.


In my diminished mental state while all this was going on, I put a bowl of grapes on the patio table because the fruit flies were driving me crazy. I forgot about them. A raccoon found them, and while I do not begrudge him the snack, I wish he had not broken my pretty ceramic solar light. Sad. Also, I could have done without the pile of scat outside my patio door. Is my life entertaining or what?


At least taking pictures of the moon is still fun.



Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Figuring Out The Hows and Whys

[I know. That title looks funny. Oh well. I started this post almost 3 weeks ago. I planned to give it a week, to think about it and see what I could remember. Which I did. I kept coming back and adding little notes. Then Husband got sick for a week, and our washing machine broke down, and things were just turned a bit upside down. Anyway, time call this one done. It's a long one. Sorry. I suppose it's also more for me than for anyone else, but I'll welcome any thoughts & comments!]


From November to early April, I lost about 6 pounds. I was not actively trying to lose weight. I did not feel like I was depriving myself, or making myself miserable (for the most part - I will get to that). I was doing moderate amounts of exercise, not killing myself with workouts.

Then in late April I suddenly turned into a potato-chip-and-pound-cake-scarfing fiend. Those pounds came back in short order, and I've picked up a few more (seems to be the way it goes). I already posted about this - at the end of May - and what have I done about it? Not a whole lot.

Reading this post about all calories not being equal over on Cranky Fitness got me thinking about what exactly I was doing while those 6 lbs quietly melted away...And then thinking that what I really need to do is write it down and figure out what I was doing right. That seems like the sensible place to start, right?

It should be stated: This is a whole bunch of random stuff that I remember. It's not any kind of organized weight loss or health plan because I wasn't planning anything at the time. I was not counting calories or points. I was not measuring portions. I was not following any specific diet. I was just living. Husband was away a lot, I was figuring out how to be on my own after 10+ years of always having him around. I was trying out some things that would have been harder to do when Husband is around - cutting out wheat & dairy, full time vegetarianism.

What was going on:
- Husband left for his first trip to Japan just before Halloween 2011.
- Husband has been traveling back and forth periodically since then, but he was certainly home during some of that 6 month time period
- I went to Japan for a week in March
- Looking back over my workouts now, I would say that when Husband is away I probably get in more workouts, but honestly not more than I have done at other times in the past. A lot of Zumba, strength training/circuit workouts, but also walking, yoga & Pilates.
- When Husband is home, we probably eat out once a week. When he was away I rarely ate out.
- I did not count calories or otherwise track what I was eating (wishing I had now, so I would know exactly what I was eating)
- I did often stop think before eating to determine if I was really hungry or really  needed to eat. Honestly, I think this came later as I realized I was losing weight, and I felt motivated to try. I felt like I was in a good place with my eating, like I was in tune with my body.

What I was eating:
- I did two weeks of strict no wheat, no dairy. After that I tried to avoid it most of the time but sometimes if I wanted pizza, I ate pizza. I really missed cheese a lot. Bread & yogurt too, but mostly cheese.
- When husband was away, I was mostly vegetarian, though I did eventually start eating fish once or twice a week.
- I ate corn pasta, brown rice pasta, soba (buckwheat) noodles, corn tortillas.
- I sometimes ate guacamole & Organic Tostitos as a meal. Yes I did.
- I also ate fish tacos with guacamole. And black bean tacos with guacamole. I was probably eating 2 or 3 avocados per week.
- Lots of Peanut Butter Noodles
- If I wanted something sweet I had a couple squares of Lindt Dark Chocolate with Sea Salt (I love that stuff!)
- I had the occasional margarita or can of coke.
- I cooked with coconut oil most of the time.
- I was eating the little bags of chips with my lunch at work semi-regularly. It didn't seem to be doing any harm for a while, did not seem to be sending me out of control.

This is not to say that everything was all kittens & rainbows for that 6 months. I had my bad moments when Husband was away and I was missing him. I had periods of work stress and planning our trip to Japan was a little on the crazy-making side.

And. Every day that I avoided wheat & dairy was hard. However, those restrictions were not motivated by weight loss and I definitely was not going hungry. Avoiding wheat and dairy meant I had to stop and think every time I planned a meal or wanted to eat something. I think that stop for thought may have been a big factor in the weight that I did lose.

Where it went off the rails:
- Who knows why it suddenly happens? It often feels so random!
- I do know that stress eating was part of it. Husband was away, high priority project at work, and the cats were peeing all over the house after we were so unkind as to leave them with a house sitter and take off to Japan for 10 days.
- And I know that once I give in to the potato chips and pound cake (or whatever), they can take over very quickly.
- I don't know if it's the 'what' (specific foods) or if it is the 'how' (allowing that out of control, mechanical feeling when) I am eating.

I know 6 lbs over 6 months may not sound like a lot. But it's the most I've managed to lose in...um...well, ever I think. And I did it almost without noticing. I must have been doing something right.








Monday, October 1, 2012

September Summary & October Goals

I'm kind of sad September is over. I feel like I've missed out on sunny September days when I should have been out enjoying the last bit of summer...but I think that's because we've been getting a lot of rainy weather, so there haven't been a lot of nice days to enjoy.

Good stuff:
  • My treadmill is back in working order
  • The new Zumba schedule is working out really well for me
  • I feel like I'm back in a more normal workout routine...

September Workouts
01: Ellen Barrett Barefoot Cardio DVD[45 mins]
04: Strength Circuit[35 mins]
05: Pick Your Level Pilates DVD[30 mins]
09: Kathy Smith Staying Strong - UB + Abs[30 mins]
10: Kathy Smith Staying Strong - legs + Glutes[30 mins]
11: Zumba
13: Zumba
18: Zumba
20: Zumba
22: Jackie Warner Power Circuit Total Body[30 mins]
24: Crunch Joy Of Yoga[35 mins]
25: Zumba
28: Jackie Warner Xtreme Circuit
30: Strength Circuit[45 mins]
 
Not so good stuff...
Actually, I don't have too many complaints at the moment, aside from the rainy weather. 
 
  • The days are getting shorter and my sunrise alarm clock is pretty much at the end of it's life. I've ordered a new sunrise clock though, and it can't rain forever. We're bound to get some sunny autumn days soon.
  • We have a portable dishwasher and last night, as I was rolling it across the kitchen to the sink, I managed to smash my hand between the dishwasher and the pointy edge of the china cabinet. That's not so good. I'm sure I didn't do any serious damage, but it's mighty sore and I think I am on my way to a rather spectacular bruise. 
Onward to October!
Exercise: I want to keep the momentum going. September was decent, a good mix of activities, I want more of the same.

Eating: Husband came home from Japan and noted that I am pretty much off the wagon when it comes to avoiding wheat & dairy. I was going through a phase where I just couldn't think of things I  wanted to eat and didn't want to be bothered with cooking. Which leads to making poor choices when I finally decide I'm hungry and I need to eat. So, at the time, I decided it was better to let myself have a grilled cheese and tomato sandwich on whole grain bread than to eat potato chips for dinner (sad but true). So far I seem to be doing okay with the wheat & dairy, so I'm just going to see how things go.

However, there have been some bad habits creeping in. Like those bags of potato chips that are so easy to grab from the lunchroom at work. I don't need to be eating those every day. So my goal is to stay away from them for the next four weeks. I can do that.

Still picking tomatoes - at least I was a week ago. It rained really hard all weekend, so I didn't get out to the garden, but the previous weekend I brought in another bucket full. Aren't they pretty?


So we have been eating lots of tomatoes...Really, there is pasta under that pile of tomatoes, olives & feta. 


I have also experimented with taking pictures of the moon. I was surprised at what I can get with my little camera and lack of photography experience. This was cropped out of a larger image taken with a 55-250mm lens.



Today was a busier day than I wanted it to be, and I didn't quite manage to get everything done that I  had hoped, but I still accomplished a lot. The rest can wait for tomorrow. October off to a good start!

Monday, September 3, 2012

Teeny Tiny Baby Steps

I wouldn't say I'm 100% back in the exercise groove, but I'm on my way.

Bad news: My treadmill conked out on me. We did buy the extended warranty, so hopefully I can get it fixed.

Good news: The schedule at the fitness studio changed again, so I might start getting back to Zumba.

July:
July 03: Zumba
July 04: Jackie Warner Power Circuit Upper Body
July 10: Jackie Warner Power Circuit Upper Body
July 11: Jackie Warner Power Circuit Lower Body
July 28: Pick Your Level Pilates DVD

August:
Aug 10: Kathy Smith Personal Trainer Stretching workout
Aug 13: Treadmill Walk [30 mins]
Aug 15: Treadmill Walk [30 mins]
Aug 17: Crunch Fat Burning Yoga DVD
Aug 20: Weeding garden
Aug 22: Weeding garden
Aug 27: Treadmill Walk [25 mins]
Aug 28: Pick Your Level Pilates DVD
Aug 31: Kathy Smith Staying Strong DVD

Food wise, I started to  make some progress...was feeling good...did some major back-sliding...and now am hoping that I'm ready to get back to good. All within the space of a couple of weeks. All over the place. That's me.

I have so many tomatoes this year, we've had an excellent growing season (aside from the lack of rain early on) and I'm loving it. Carrots also grew really well, so I've been eating lots of this:


That would be grilled cheese & tomato with carrot sticks. Husband is still away, which means this is often dinner. I like it. Not so much that husband is away, but that I can eat what I feel like.

Of course, sometimes I do feel like something a bit fancier:


That would be haddock that I cooked on the BBQ, wrapped in foil with lime juice and a Thai spice blend. I then topped it with a fresh peach salsa and had fresh veggie spring rolls on the side. Sometimes I amaze myself. :)



Did I mention the tomatoes have been fabulous this year?







Hello from the Fabulous Felines!


And good night!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Hello Treadmill! Remember Me?

This has got to be the worse exercise slump I have ever experienced. I am unmotivated, disorganized and easily distracted. My routine - I used to have one - is completely shot. I could go back through the series of events, list causes and explanations...but the important part right now is the solution.

Why hello there treadmill! It's been a long time...

In my unmotivated, disorganized state of mind, I can't settle on any exercise that I feel like doing. Since I have no routine, I can't look at a schedule to see what my next workout should be. But my treadmill is still there, faithfully waiting. This is one of the reasons I wanted a treadmill in the first place; barring injury or illness, I can almost always manage a walk on the treadmill. Tired? Busy? Lacking in energy or motivation? A short and/or easy walk on the treadmill still adds some exercise into my day.

So Monday after work I liberated my treadmill from it's corner in the basement. When I first turned it on, it did this horrible shuddering-groaning-grinding thing, but once it started up it was fine. I went back through my workout notebook and found that the last time I used my treadmill was in February; I don't think it has ever gone unused for such a long period of time.

So we're getting to know one another again. I'm taking it easy for now. I think I need new sneakers. But I'm getting back in the game.

Now to tackle the eating. When Husband first started traveling for work, I was all enthused to cook purely for myself. I enjoyed experimenting with full time vegetarianism. Then adding in some fish. Trying to cut out wheat and dairy and finding that it does have health benefits for me. But I've lost my motivation there too. I don't want to be bothered with cooking. I can't think of anything in particular that I want to eat. What is the healthy eating equivalent of the treadmill? Any thoughts?

I did stop at the grocery store on the way home yesterday to stock up. Hard to make eating your veggies a priority when the fridge is pretty much empty. In addition to my usual veggie staples, I bought a bag of Broccoli Slaw. Open bag. Dump in bowl. Consume. I should be able to manage that. Baby steps in the right direction.