Thursday, August 28, 2008

The Fear

Things are going well with the Beck Diet. I am finding that just having to read each day's exercise in the book keeps me on track. It keeps me thinking about my goals, how I feel being at this weight and what I need to do to change things.

Technically, this has been the first week of actual dieting. It's been going well. But that's not unusual. It seems that there is always a bit of a honeymoon phase when just starting out, where it seems easy to stick to my menu plans.

Thing is, I've been down this road before. And I have come to the conclusion that in order for me to actually lose fat, I am going to have to be very strict. I am going to have to make more drastic changes than I have tried in the past. To be honest, I am still at a tiny bit of a loss as to how to do this. So far, I have cut out the snack that I normally have during the afternoon. I'm trying to be careful with my other meals as well, and not eat in the evenings after dinner, but none of that is new. So I'm questioning whether this is enough. What other changes will I need to make?

I'm feeling The Fear that I won't see the pounds coming off and I will get discouraged and start letting extra calories creep in.

Of course, that's the point of the Beck Solution - to keep you from sabotaging yourself. I am supposed to be learning how to stick to a diet, even when it's tough.

But there is still The Fear. Still that question in my mind: What if it's not enough?

Day 21, fittingly is about preparing for the first Weigh In. It gives some good advice about having the right attitude when it comes to stepping on the scale. If I have followed my diet, I should see a loss. If not, this is a signal to reflect on whether I have stuck to my diet. Did I follow my food plan and get in my workouts? If I have been doing everything I should do, this could just be a normal weight fluctuation. Or it could be a signal that I need to change what I am doing. Whatever the reason, if I don't see the number I want, that is not an excuse to stop trying or to go on a binge.

It's really quite a good section, one that I will refer to again when it comes to stepping on the scale.

And with that, I am off. I'm gone for the weekend. I will try to update my weight tomorrow morning if I can, but if not I'll get to it by the end of the weekend.

Have a great weekend everyone!




Jaime said...

hehe, all your talk of sunflowers...I went out bought a bunch on the weekend. :) Lovely in my living room...would've been lovelier outside, but I do what I can.

I did actually try to grow one dwarf sunflower last year at our old place on the West Coast, but the garden was whatever the previous renters had dug up and I think the dirt was too much just good soil. Sadly, my dwarf didn't do so well. :(

Crissy Rae said...

All I can say when it comes to weight loss is be strong. Don't let any mishaps derail you from reaching your goals. We all hit those brick walls and have plateaus and just have to get through them. Remember, it's not how hard we fall but how quickly we bounce back up.

Have a great weekend!

Anonymous said...

such an interesting post.


I have this by the barrelfull in a different realm and FOR ME it simply became a "if I dont try I wont know and the WHAT IF is worse than my FAILING and realizing I need to just shift a few things around to succeed!"

it would be the same for you.

I need to go back and reread and see if I can find precise calorie amounts and breakdown of what youre doing...just curiousity!

the Bag Lady said...

We all feel THE FEAR in our lives....but I am convinced that you can overcome it!
And I see your weight DID go down - congratulations!!
Hang in there.

Crabby McSlacker said...

Hope you had a great weekend--and sounds like the Beck book had some really good advice about weigh ins!