I took some time off from weight loss blogging because I felt like it was starting to make me a little crazy. I kept working out. Eating was hit and miss. In other words: Status quo. But that doesn't mean I completely stopped thinking about it, and by late fall/early winter, I knew I had to give this thing another go...I just didn't feel quite ready to start. By mid-December I was getting closer though, and I wrote the following post...
I'm writing this in December, even though I know I won't be posting it until sometime in early January. I am already thinking ahead to the new year, thinking about goals, what I have learned over the past year, things that have worked/not worked. As is often the case, when my brain gets going on something, I have to stop and focus on it, get it out of my system, so that I can get on with other things that I need to do. So here I am.
I started this blog in the hopes that it would be a tool to aid in my weight loss efforts. I have "met" some fantastic bloggers - all of them intelligent and caring people - who have given me things to think about along the way. I thank all of you for that.
I still haven't managed to lose the weight though.
I am not here to moan and complain about it. I am here to think about what lessons can be learned, and what I can do from here on out. I plan to put the focus back on weight loss - at least until gardening season rolls around again, then all bets are off and you will all be subjected to many more photos of gardens and cats! I'm not entirely sure what is going to happen with all of this...Will I finally figure things out and make some progress? Have I really managed to learn anything? Am I willing, have I learned how to change things?
One thing that feels different is my attitude. Before, I was always on a mission. I had weight loss targets, calorie goals, workout plans, and if I didn't meet the expectations I had set for myself, it felt like I had failed the mission. Possibly all the 'failures' have made me more cautious, but my attitude now is more experimental. I'm thinking more along the lines of "let's try this and see what happens" rather than "I must do this and lose pounds."
I don't know whether this attitude will last. I don't know whether it will make any difference at all. But I want to go with it and see what happens.
Stay tuned, we're all about to find out...